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|Friday, April 15th, 2011|
you think life is so easy?
you think everything works like magic?
i expect you, of all people, to understand.
but somehow you just can't
|Sunday, February 27th, 2011|
stop spamming my journal i'm still using it!
|Saturday, September 26th, 2009|
- always cut your nails before you put on/remove contact lenses, otherwise, monthly lenses will become dailies.#2
- when playing tap tap revenge, its good to play medium/easy levels once in a while, otherwise you'll find it too easy for you and you start losing when not playing hard/extreme level.#3
- second hand > first hand. first hand stick - $170. second hand stick $50.
on another note, i'm spending alot of money and i love it. so long as it makes people happy.
|Friday, September 11th, 2009|
i realised i haven't been updating, as usual. things are just getting way busy for me to come here. i don't even visit my philo-blog and i only know of an assignment now, when it was supposed to be up more than one week ago. sigh.
mltr concert was awesome. actually i can't imagine how a concert can be bad in the first place. the atmosphere and the adrenaline rush just makes up for everything. thats why they are paid as entertainers right. and thats why there are good songs. you just can't fall asleep when you hear complicated heart, 25 minutes, paint my love, out of the blue, thats why you go away, all live and loaded, under the cover of the blue night. doesnt matter whether you slept for half an hour or eight hours the day before. you just can't sleep at any concert. especially when you have such good company.
anyway just to remind myself, i made something edible/drinkable myself today. wow. amazing. first time i guess.
im really starting to be bogged down by werk now (no offence to archi students, i know your situation is much much worse than mine). its hard juggling every single thing and ensuring they stay in the air. but i know i can do it, and i will do it. its time for serious time management i guess, and self-discipline of course.
|Tuesday, September 1st, 2009|
finally back to work after a one week hiatus, and i realised how much i missed work, even though its gonna take away my time and my energy, but it just seemed some sort of relaxant to take me away from the stress in school.
projects have started coming in, geog and ssa, and i dunno whether i should be happy or sad that i have to work in a group. one thing is i have to charter energy to work, because the amount of work i put in affects other people's grade, which i don't want to. but at least it makes me work.
wonder what happens when someone possesses the charisma to charm and charge someone. wow.
i hate 8am lectures. i hate 8am lectures especially when i'm behind.
|Monday, August 31st, 2009|
|the feel good drag
i think i must start writing down stuff.. if not i'll forget what an exciting life i had, and keep harping on the fact that i took a chinese module in uni. i guess i'll start today then.
baybeats for the first time in my life, and i guess it will definitely not be the last. anberlin was just awesome today (yes i baybeated only because they were performing). from the up close and personal interview at the library, where they also did a cover of radiohead's creep, then the acoustic set, where they did unwinding cable car, a day late and feel good drag among other songs. dint go for the finale at powerhouse though, but the acoustic was wonderful enough. just loved the way the crowd sang along with stephen. thank god i had company as well. its always good to share good music with people.
i need to buy cities
so much for pusu-ing though, billy bombers for dinner, that made me damn damn damn full. honey crusted chicken, coupled with butterscotch famous amos cookies. whee! and i should stop being indecisive and changing my mind at the very last second. doesnt do me any good i guess. and i better grow some balls haha
start of the new week though. i hate mondays. monday blues.
|Monday, August 17th, 2009|
i don't why but i just love writing (as in the action 'writing') rather than type. i would rather submit handwritten assignments rather than typed out essays. i think i just like to admire my teeny-weeny handwriting.
|first week of school and other stuffs
this is why i think punctuality is an important trait. being late without giving any apology and still giving excuses to delay things further. i wouldn't mind if you were wasting just my time, but once it affects someone else, i think that's it. wasting three people's one hour, means you, an individual is capable of wasting three hours. imagine how much things can be done in three hours. this is exactly the same theory you used on sales. perhaps the first unprofessional thing i have discovered about this organisation so far.
and because of this one hour delay, original plans went awry, spontaneous decisions have to be made. i really hope not much damage is done because of it.
anyway i really can't believe i have survived the first week of school, but i can't see how i can manage to survive the rest of the 3-4 years. (but of course, respect to yangy/terry and co. as well. archi is so damn tough!!) am i glad to have some great company during breaks, before lessons, after lessons, basically any free time that i have. am gonna meet up before tmr again! i hope i wake up haha. one more thing: CL1101E FTL! i can't believe i actually took that module.
on another note: season has started with a flourish! spurs 2-1 with bae and bassong scoring, but keane just refuses to score against the club he supports haha. only watched the first half though, and sorry to pool fans, but based on first half performance and statistics, spurs deserved the win.they say that the road
aint no place to start a family
right down the line
its been you and me
and lovin a music man
aint always what its supposed to be
oh girl you stand by me
im forever yours
|Thursday, July 9th, 2009|
The time had to come sooner or later for everyone, and I think only a handful can manage to avoid it altogether in his/her lifetime. Of course, I'd rather it never happen though.
I must say it was one of my siannest, downest, and definitely the most flustered time in my life so far. There ain't nothing you can do if you have no idea what to do, and I was so afraid the other party might take it a step further and tricked me into a deeper abyss. Managed to climb out though with the help of my dad, yet the desire to do ANYTHING was gone. Haven't had lunch, yet I felt like I had just finished a buffet, and although I was so damn free, I felt bogged down with a whole load of mundane work.]
Thanks for those who kept me sane though. Hope you all belong to the handful that manage to avoid such catastrophes in life. Meanwhile I shall just sleep away the blues...
|Monday, June 8th, 2009|
|camp or nou camp?
Funny how every small thing can be a freaking dilemma that can make me rock back and forth for a few days. For any other person, it would have been an easy decision. [1) Alright, I'll take off a few days, and go through the essence of uni life, if that is considered an essence. 2) A waste of time, I think I'll skip it.] Yep, these two ideologies have had me sitting on the fence for quite some while now.
It would have been a much easier choice if I had been smarter in the past. I figured if I had been more intelligent on the financial side, I could have around 4k now, yet I'm stuck with only a meagre 1k, the 3k spent, donated, wasted, cheated, stolen, robbed and whatever means you can think of, so long as money is channelled out of my funds.
And up comes the question of responsibility as well. A contract is a contract, whether its verbal or black and white. Work till July means work till July, and taking back my word isn't my cup of tea (otherwise I would have resigned long ago and not stayed on at this boring workplace). Moreover, jobs are hard to find, so I have to be content with one that I don't really enjoy, than having a lot of trouble to find one that I sort of enjoy.
Finally, the crux that is giving me this headache, is the potential trouble I bestow to people, which I always hold in high regard. Almost everyone knows that in GOs, handing and taking over is the most important thing, rather than the process. Since its my last week here, its my takeover week, and it would be catastrophic if my colleague comes back and tries to figure out the mess I've created over the past few months.
It just sucks to have this "want to go/don't want to go, should go/should be don't go" feeling, if you know what I mean.
Maybe I should just let the powers of gravity decide.
|Thursday, May 28th, 2009|
sometimes, in fact most of the times, you give all sorts of excuses, so much that i'm too lazy to argue, i just give up.
|Thursday, May 7th, 2009|
|i'm a fresh fish, not a luck sack
How does luck ever bestow herself on someone? Is it based on karma, where the good will be rewarded, and the bad will be eaten, or does she have a mega wheel-of-fortune to see the next person she will present herself to? That is one thing I guess I'll never figure out.
Past two days I've seen people netting wins over SingaporePools. It doesn't matter whether it is $250 or $3+, a win is a win. Even with the fact that they shaded wrongly. While I've had a barren spell of 283 days, where I've been constantly giving out purple, green and red notes to
cashiers wearing red
the community chest. (Anyway doesn't that spell as good karma)
I have four more match-weeks to go till the end of the financial year, of which I will definitely report a loss due to a recession of luck, and a couple of bad calls, then an off-season break which I'm gonna do some work on some statistics, of which my playbook will be based on, of which people will definitely render it useless. People who say, "Statistics is just like a bra, it covers up the most important parts", or something along those lines.
I have found out the perfect answer to that. "That is as close as one can get."
|Monday, May 4th, 2009|
awesome week i had the past week. ta's birthday was definitely the most creative party i've been to so far.. kl with the truckers was great as well, even though half the time was spent gambling haha.. it was my first free and easy trip + first trip out with friends, i can't believe i did it only at 20 going 21. 2 overnight grak sessions (a record breaking 10 hour session for me) followed and of course peng's bash..
i guess it was a much-needed perhaps well-deserved break for me, considering that work started 2 weeks after i ord, and i have been a workaholic since then. adding to that some tension/friction within the family before the week really made me look forward to kl.
now that i'm returning to work later in the day, i have to say i'm quite dreading the prospect, as it means more time wasting in the office, probably something like army, just that pay is slightly better. the only thing better in army is that you can scoot upstairs to sleep. but too bad for me, i need to survive. I suppose part of me's gonna regret picking up this job, as it's just plain mundane and I don't really learn anything from it to bring it forward in life, but a deal's a deal and I'm gonna stay till july and hope I can improve my job prospects from there, at least something other than a deskbound office job..
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|Friday, January 23rd, 2009|
|pumpkin carriages and mousy horses; impossible things are happening EVERYDAY
cinderella was great! i'm so glad i ponned my battalion's reunion dinner to go for this production. and some more the tickets were at half price, so i paid 70 bucks for like damn good seats (cat 2 original price $135). i'm very satisfied that i actually bought the tix on impulse, like one day before, and caught the final show.
lea salonga was just, well, lea salonga. she had mad vocals, and the moment she started singing, i know why she's a multi-award winner, and you can well, picture jasmine (from aladdin) and mulan singing on stage. that's why she's a star right? rest of the cast were, i guess above average thats all. perhaps i was seated too near the orchestra (just 4 rows behind), such that i found some actors/actresses voices being drowned by the music, and thats it, that verse was missed.
i read some reviews that commented the set was quite kiddy and stuff, and yeah it was, but what do you expect, its an adaptation of a fairy tale, you expect it to have a 'doubt'-like set, or a pillowman set? i thought it was alright though. loved the stepsisters too! they were damn pro, and you know you're pro when you can do something badly deliberately, their screwed-up curtsies and dancing just look super believable.
perhaps the only thing i was not happy about was that cinderella perhaps dressed too unshabbily, although it was quite different from her stepsisters and the townfolk. oh well maybe its just lea salonga looks pretty in everything haha. and i still can't figure out how she changed into the gown just by walking behind the carriage?! it was like a normal walking pace and she comes out the other side with a gown!!
i suppose its a good play for people who want to relive their childhood days (ie me), and it really brought back the times when i believed that wishes come true, impossible things do happen, fairy godmothers, magic, and of course, love (which i still believe in anyway). i mean thats the reason we all watch plays right, to enjoy ourselves and just forget about everything for 2+ hours.
CATS up next, with perhaps a few shows from huayi from now till then. and yes, plays are expensive haha.give a man an inch, and he'll think he's a ruler
|Monday, December 29th, 2008|
|happy new year pull your ear
its a brand new year, but the same old person. i don't really believe in new year resolutions, much less believing in going the distance with them. probably will forget/forgo them by the third or fourth day. old habits die hard, but such old habits are those that mould his character into who he is. i always thought, if you are changing your habits, aren't you depriving yourself of the very essence of your own life? then you're not you anymore, isn't it. (and then it starts to get confusing here, and points that contradict my current pov starts to form in my head, so i suppose i'll cut it here, until i decide which road to take.)
anyway just for fun, ( top ten new year resolutions of all timeCollapse )
of course, i've made my own resolutions, which is roughly the same every year except for some minor twitches, because they are based on my beliefs, my life goals, defining who I am clearer.
here's to a satisfying, quality 2009.
|Sunday, November 23rd, 2008|
three nights of airport duty
two sore eyes
one screwed up respiratory system
life sucks, and will suck for 3 more months. is this what i'm paid $700 for?
edit: phone's spoilt as well. ugh.
|Saturday, November 15th, 2008|
|Monday, November 3rd, 2008|
i can't believe this just happened.
can't believe this just happened.
but what the heck.
i'm just too =S to say anything, to do anything, to feel anything right now.
i don't even feel like typing this entry.
just really want to go somewhere to let out everything stored inside.
i can feel my tolerance level already.
maybe this is why one is sometimes the best number in the world[/edit] Current Mood: pissed off
|Thursday, October 23rd, 2008|
|o me! o life!
O Me! O life!... of the questions of these recurring;
Of the endless trains of the faithless - of cities fill'd with the foolish;
Of myself forever reproaching myself, (for who more foolish than I, and who more faithless?)
Of eyes that vainly crave the light - of the objects mean - of the struggle ever renew'd;
Of the poor results of all - of the plodding and sordid crowds I see before me;
Of the empty and useless years of the rest - with the rest me intertwined;
The question, O me! so sad, recurring - What good amid these, O me, O life?
That you are here - that life exists, and identity;
That the powerful play goes on, and you will contribute a verse.
O Me! O Life!
|Monday, October 6th, 2008|
avenue q beckons. november the 4th.
gonna be the third production i'm going this year after pillowman and boom!. thinking of attending office party as well. yes, the theatre interest might have just ceased a bit in me, but ultimately, its still an avenue (no pun intended) for an escape to a whole new world, away from the harsh reality of life (though boom! gave me a rather poignant, realistic view to singapore's struggle for land and history and familial values). just like books, music and movies.
sometimes i just feel that the escapism level in me is so high such that every little small thing that affects me negatively, i'll just run away from it and hope it dies down sooner or later, and definitely hope that it doesn't catch up with me. but its just weird that somethings will just keep on chasing and chasing, nibbling and nibbling, until you really grab them by the scruff of the neck and put them out. come to think of it, i really can't recall to doing that in my life.
perhaps thats why my whole life is so centralised around books, music and movies and now maybe plays, such that i am willing to spend an atrocious amount of money on them, and that i really go for good-quality stuff (books that really intrigued me such that i can don't think of anything else, movies that i can watch over and over again, and music, that puts me in another mood, that covers the real mood that i am feeling. seriously i'll die without my mp3 player, or if my external hard drive crashes)
i want to watch pillowman again. catch that portion which was so memorable to me, the ending of suffering.